The Awkwardness of Passion & Perspective

Expensive Dancing Genuine passion is awkward. When exhibited, real authentic passion sometimes elicits jealousy, envy and mockery. These are natural expressions from people dissatisfied and uncomfortable with their own lack of initiative. Perspective works similarly. Raw unexplained perspective causes alienation and frustration with those who can't see the same details and don't appreciate the world the same way. Oftentimes I laugh when no one else does because I see a correlation they don't. Thus I inspire social awkwardness. And I wonder why I find myself spending so much time alone. The truth is it takes a lot of effort to explain myself. And it takes a lot of patience to restrain my passion so I interact naturally with other people. Sometimes I don't feel like it's worth it, but that's another blog. Why am I writing this? I am a woman filled with passion. I can think of five things off the top of my head that when I divulge my perspective can cause me near to yelling. Oftentimes when I'm alone in my house that's exactly what I do. And yet I am required to engage other humans in a way that is respectful so I mostly keep my thoughts to myself until I can find ways to express them clearly. So I blog and vlog and make dancefilms and comedy videos and write stories and use cap locks on Twitter and do everything I can to try and SHOW people my perspective. Not that there's anything praise-worthy about me apart from Christ but when He shows me how He sees the world it makes me so passionate I can't help myself. I think that's the way it's supposed to be. It's very very expensive though. It's one thing for someone to understand what you're trying to say; it's another for someone to appreciate how much it costs you to say it. Take "Blue Dress" for instance. When I started talking to Fouad "Fred" Bou-Jaoude I didn't know anything about storytelling or film except what I'd seen in "LOTR making of" videos. I'd spent my entire life knowing I saw things differently but not understanding how or why. Fred understood my story well enough to film it and for the first time I had something with which to SHOW people my perspective. I struggle with pain the same as anybody else. But I also see it differently. "Blue Dress" is about dealing with pain. Blue Dress from Fouad Bou-Jaoude on Vimeo. The irony is that sometimes folks are so moved they don't have words to explain how. And then we are the same.

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  • DoGoodOrDoNaught

    As always, you may not find my commentary useful or relevant, but I just thought I’d share some thoughts that this blog inspired. If you don’t like what I have to say, I hope you will say so:

    I wonder if we focus too much on our differences and not enough on our similarities. I’m tempted toward frustration when someone doesn’t understand or appreciate my perspective and/or passion. But, do I really need that from them? Am I just battling my pride? Maybe, I should, instead, concentrate on finding common ground and think about what the other person needs. Sometimes, no amount of words or actions is enough. I can’t step inside your shoes any more than you can mine. So, if we come to an impasse, let’s recognize it early and move in a new direction inspired by love. Too often, I try to force life to be complicated, but I really think it ought to be simple. Love, work hard, and be thankful. If I do that, I think everything else will fall into place.

    • “I’m tempted toward frustration when someone doesn’t understand or appreciate my perspective and/or passion. But, do I really need that from them? Am I just battling my pride?”

      I struggle with this too. I’m definitely convicted there.

      But look at Jesus. Was it not loving passion that moved Him to tell parable after parable of the kingdom of heaven on earth and yet the disciples still did not understand Him until after His death, resurrection and accession?

      And oftentimes today we still misunderstand Him. Is this not something to be moved by?

      Thanks for commenting. I wrote this blog after watching the movie “Temple Grandin” so this is just my take on why folks struggle seeing things from a different perspective. :-)

      • DoGoodOrDoNaught

        “But look at Jesus. Was it not loving passion that moved Him to tell parable after parable of the kingdom of heaven on earth and yet the disciples still did not understand Him until after His death, resurrection and accession?”

        That’s a very good point. As you say, Jesus’s passion was out of love, so if we make love our aim, we’ll learn better how to express ourselves.

        “And oftentimes today we still misunderstand Him. Is this not something to be moved by?”

        It certainly is. And even though my knowledge of the extent of God’s love is so woefully inadequate, it is yet enough to move me to know Him better, to keep on going even after I do the things that I hate.

        “Thanks for commenting.”

        I’m most happy to! I’m sorry if I’ve ever come off the wrong way. I just want to give encouragement, and certainly, I have no end of learning how I might do that better.

        “I wrote this blog after watching the movie “Temple Grandin” so this is just my take on why folks struggle seeing things from a different perspective. :-)”

        Now that I know more precisely where you were coming from, everything you said makes a whole lot more sense to me. As you well know, context makes all the difference in the world. I need to start kindly asking for more context when I feel I’m in danger of running on unfounded assumptions.

        Anyway, I just watched the trailer for “Temple Grandin,” and it looks really good. I’m going to watch it sometime this week. Thanks very much for your reply! :-)

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